Signing off...

We've been literally sucker punched with the most devastating diagnosis that I could have imagined.

It is not about me or my husband, or my boy...but a man that we all love more than words can express.   A man who has a heart of gold and the soul to go with it.

The next few days are going to bring a lot of answers (none of them good) and the next few months are going to be a trial of family and love and heart unlike anything that I have ever experienced.

Being a nurse is sometimes a curse... I have seen too much.

While I realize that focusing on the positives right now is optimal and I would love to share those times with you here.

I find that I am numb.

I just can't do it. 


I can not find it in me to write about dolls and flowers and biscuits while tears stream down my face.

I can't.

And so, I am signing off.

I may be back here and there to share some of the good.  But this space is a happy one, and I recognize in myself that I am not going to be much company in the foreseeable future.

Lots of love and wishes for health to you and your families.

XO, Julia